No Job Equals Less of a Man

I wonder if it’s just me who feels like half a man? I have a Bachelor’s degree in Business Administration but no job. It isn’t like I’m not getting interviews either. I’ve probably been on 10 in the last 2 months. Suited up, practiced and even studied some of the openings so I could have a leg up during the interviews. And I’m pretty sure I’m not bombing it on the interviews either.

You might even say it’s because of place but I’m not living in a big city but thirty thousand isn’t just a small town either. It’s rated one of the best small towns to live in the USA, ranked #5. Maybe its a numbers game? 100 jobs in a city of 30,000 looks good but 100 jobs in 3,000,000 looks like a crap shot. Am I wrong though, should I be having better luck finding a job?

This non stop going and interviewing and still not coming up with a job is putting some weight on my shoulders that I try not to show my family. But at times it feels like I can’t support my family and it cuts to the bone. I feel as though I can’t ask for any time off, or time to hang out with an acquaintance.

I want to leave my kids a great example to follow as a man but not being able to find a job is a huge disappointing example. The father/man I had raise me always had a job. Whether it be warehouse work or construction work. He even had a job as a drug dealer until he was no longer around. This is who I based my understandings of being a father on. 

I’m Clueless on How To be a Dad

From what I can tell from the people I follow on here or articles I read on being a dad. Most of the time we all are just trying not to screw it up. 

The most recent information we got was from my girlfriend’s father about my son’s behavioral problems in school. Just like a wise old man he said

First Father and Son Project – Bird House

So I got this summer idea off the net somewhere and figured it would be a great project to get my son started on building things with his hands. With no plans or idea of what to do we went to Menard. Not the brightest ideas but it was a way to get the proverbial ball rolling.

I used the guise that it was for her father who was visiting for the weekend. That meant the project was getting the green light.